Message in a bottle
October 10, 2006Whoever you are…this message was written in a dark moment…
I’m such a recluse, increasingly so
That people don’t ask to call down anymore
I’m choking and drowning in this charred despair
Grotesque hooded demons are pulling up chairs
They’re setting up camp, planning to stay
How long this time before they go away
Loathe going out to be snared up in crowds
People screaming and screeching unsightly and loud
Shopping’s a nightmare, can’t get through the door
Not going back there, don’t like it no more
Bright autumn sunlight leaves drift all which ways
Gets harder and harder to keep the good days
Trapped in this hell when the storm clouds appear
Black keeps coming back and I shiver with fear.
I’ll stay quiet in this corner like any other head case
And you won’t see the tears as they course down my face
Mixed up sick brain cells drag me off to this place
Wish they’d let me alone and give me some space.
Look on without feeling when my life goes astray
Have to hang on like hell now, joy’s had its day.
Jan
Oh Jan you poor poor pet to be trapped in such a dark and unfriendly place. There are many here who recognise where you are at right now. Just remember that we are all sending blessings and love to enfold and protect you. Close your eyes and see if you can sense the gentle vibrations of love and affection touching your heart.
love and a hundred thousand Irish blessings on you tonight,
Edith.
Edith – I read this and tried it and went to sleep, precious, precious sleep. A hundred thousand thanks.
Edith is right Jan. So many of us know this space. Only last week the reaper came waving at me and it took me all my strength to send him on his way and convince Clotho that it was not time to cut the thread. Darryl was a mess and I was beside myself. What saves me is the palpable energy that comes on cyber waves to cloak me and keep me strong. Those waves will surround you too. Just call and we will hear.
Jan, we are all casting good thoughts into the Universe for you. Things WILL come round again. Sleep well.
Yes, know that this place is supportive and will remain so.
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